I am not writing about my 5 things TODAY. I am still deciding if I should continue to write at 8 p.m. There are so many things to do in so little time yet I am learning to focus and put my creative energy into important things.
Yet, the question of being proactive and productive as an unemployed 50-something mother of 2 creeps in. How can I do both, how can I fully engage my being to create and be creative every day? Maybe because I am worried about being labeled as lazy. Or maybe, I should stop thinking what others might say about me and just be Me.
I have been living with fear, worry, and stress most of my life. Being too kind and too nice so that there's peace around me. Saying yes most of the time for things and situations till my body said stop.
I am learning to be the person I ought to be. Figuring out what my inner child would have loved to be and create. There is confusion sometimes yet there's that realization that I am a creative Being. And that's enough, for now.
(January 16,2024)
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